I don’t have much to say lately. I’ve been strangely depressed, for no good reason really. I’m just bored with my life as-is, but not motivated enough to change anything about it.

Yet.

This has happened a few times before, and I can tell you what’s going to happen.

My boredom/frustration/depression will build and build and build, until it’s reached a point beyond what I think I can handle.

And then nothing happens.

A few MORE weeks pass.

Then… something explodes and my life is massively changed.

Sometimes, I just snap and make a ton of changes I’ve been thinking about for months. Other times, karma/God/nature/whatever rears its head and changes my life for me (though it’s always a by-product of something I’ve done in the past—just shows me that I am fully responsible for my own future).

I hope it’s the latter. The former option requires too much work right now.

I told you I was unmotivated (and lazy).

And the changes I’m talking about aren’t little things. They’re the kind of changes that come after you’ve spent hours and hours re-evaluating your entire life.

This begs the question: If I know this process is beginning, why not shortcut the wait and just do something to change my life now?

I don’t know. I just don’t feel like it. I’d rather go to sleep.

Plus, I don’t think I’m done re-evaluating yet.

But, just wait.

Something big is coming.

*sigh*

It better be.