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Sun. 20 Jan 1991
Sick all day—couldn’t even get out of the house today. I slept very little last night. That could be the reason I feel so weak today. Whatever it is, I don’t want many days like this! I don’t like being here alone while Ray is at [...]

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Sat. 19 Jan 1991
Father, take this cup from me for it is too bitter to drink. However, our heavenly father, as in all things, had his reason. While my cup may seem too bitter to drink, I know there are also reasons why I must drink of it. I [...]

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Fri. 18 Jan 1991
I had a sudden burst of optimism last night and numbered the pages of this journal, just to see: 192 pages, just about 6 months worth. Will I live long enough to need to buy a second one? After my visit to the U of U [...]

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Thur. 17 Jan 1991
Appointment with Dr. F_____ today. Ray went with me. When we got there, all electricity was off in the building, meaning we had to walk to the top floor. I didn’t think I was going to make it. He said my lungs sounded clear—I just need [...]

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Wed. 16 Jan 1991
Today was probably the best day I’ve had in the last week. I’ve only felt sick half the day. I did manage to get to a phone and make an appointment at Dr. F____’s tomorrow. I hope he can tell me something positive when I see [...]

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Tue. 15 Jan 1991
Worst day since getting out of the hospital. I don’t have the energy to do anything but sit here. Thank God I only have one more dose of Pentamadine. Maybe I’ll lose this awful taste in my mouth and be able to taste food again. I [...]

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Mon. 14 Jan 1991
Same kind of day as yesterday. I did feel a little better this morning, but miserable by tonight. I’m so tired—and tired of feeling sick—and still have so much to go through. I call Dr. F_____ tomorrow to make an appointment. I don’t know what he [...]

Because of his uncanny ability to imitate several cartoon character’s voices (as well as a variety of sound effects), early in our relationship I nicknamed my boyfriend “Gizmo” in honor of his best imitation (from Gremlins, of course).
Patrick is a guy of extremes. When he’s tired, he can can sleep for days. When he’s [...]

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Sun. 13 Jan 1991
Another “no-energy” day. I haven’t done a thing all day yet I’m sitting here completely exhausted. I even find it difficult to get up and use the bathroom. I don’t see how it’s possible to feel more tired than this. The feeling of nausea is much [...]

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Sat. 12 Jan 1991
Felt worse today—worst day since getting out of the hospital. I hope I’m not headed for another visit. It seems so hard just to get through the day. If I were much more tired, I doubt I’d be able to take care of myself. Why is [...]