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Thur. 17 Jan 1991

Appointment with Dr. F_____ today. Ray went with me. When we got there, all electricity was off in the building, meaning we had to walk to the top floor. I didn’t think I was going to make it. He said my lungs sounded clear—I just need more oxygen. What does that mean? He has no objections working with Dr. E_____ and Dr. P______—that surprised me. I also had the IV tube taken out of my arm. It’s been there so long that it seems like part of me is missing. Dr. F_____ doesn’t want to see me for a month—what does that mean? Am I getting better of is it a waste of time?

This gives me a lot of questions for Dr. E_____ at the University tomorrow, if they’re open. It was closed down today due to security/bomb threats. I don’t know if that’s war-related or not. The Omnicus nurse said I should call before going. I guess I’m not the only one thinking about dying tonight. It appears as if Iraq attacked Israel today with missiles and chemicals. Why is God letting us do this to each other? His will us always done—all I can do is be a faithful servant. Maybe I’ll be lucky if I don’t live to see the end of this.

Either way, I leave myself in the Heavenly Father’s hands. I pray for all who are about to die without accepting him in their hearts. As he keeps me in this mortal life, so he will keep me in his Celestial Kingdom. I’m so lucky to have learned the true meaning of life when I did. I hope you all know how much strength and comfort my faith is giving me. It’s all I need to get through this. Remember that I know that this is true. The Holy Ghost has confirmed it to me.