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Sat. 19 Jan 1991

Father, take this cup from me for it is too bitter to drink. However, our heavenly father, as in all things, had his reason. While my cup may seem too bitter to drink, I know there are also reasons why I must drink of it. I don’t need or expect to know why. God’s will be done. I just pray that I am able to walk in his path and endure until the end. I that with faith, I can endure any pain that comes to me. I’m grateful to have found the truth when I did. If everyone in the world knew that truth, there could be no war today. This life is just a test to see if we are worthy of eternal life with our Heavenly Father. We all have this chance because he gave his only son that “bitter cup to drink.” And so many people miss the message.

I guess that my receiving that message is reason for celebration when I make my transition from this mortal life. My faith is firm and fixed—I know these things to be true. He will walk with me through the trials ahead, and carry me when I am unable to walk. I know some of you don’t share my beliefs, however, I hope you can reflect on them at the time of my transition. Perhaps He will show you the truth of what I say.

On a lighter note, I did walk to ShopKo today, although I regret doing it tonight. All that way, and they didn’t have the medicine I needed to prevent PCP. I hope thay have it by Tuesday. I should be able to get AZT by then also. The pharmacist wasn’t helpful with the first Rx until I showed him the AZT. Then, he offered to call Dr. P____. I guess he sees me as a good customer. Money makes the world go around.