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Fri. 1 Feb 1991

Got out of the house for a few hours and joined the living world. Although I didn’t get much done, I still feel like I got started. I’ll put an ad in the Big Nickel Monday and hopefully can sell enough next weekend to pay for getting a place to live. I just hope things can work out.

Ray and I went to the T_____’s for dinner. Two of the Elders joined us - it was a nice way to spend the afternoon and the first balanced meal I had since getting out of hospital. We also stopped at the J_____’s and the H______’s. It’s nice to see people again. Roulon has been sick since I went in the hospital (Maxine, too) and still looks worse than me. One of the Brothers at the ward got pneumonia since me, but died from it. It’s hard to talk with sick people about getting well knowing that I never will. Ray takes care of telling people that I’m just fine. I’d prefer people know the truth.

It would be nice to find a small apartment this week so I could get settled soon. The H______’s will be moving soon into their new house - might rent the old one out. That could be something to think about. Still, it would be too far from the grocery store and laundry facilities. Maybe the bishop knows of an apartment in the ward. I’ll have to ask him Sunday if I get the chance.

It would be so nice to have a bed to sleep in again. It’s strange that no one else seems to think that I need something more than sleeping on the floor. Is it so strange to want a bed and clean sheets? Maybe in the summer, I’d be comfortable sleeping on the sidewalk? I know things can still work out if I keep trying.